Tonight ... Last night, I lay on my bed and I can not sleep ... I think, thinking, I'd love not to have doubts and uncertainties. All the problems that weigh on my mind I slowly turn my head and sleep tolgonoil ... I would like to find a solution.
As I am happy now, hanging over me the shadow of Solitude ... so, no matter how many people are there in your life, will never leave you ... perhaps you can ignore for a while, but when complacency will return ...
Tonight my thoughts turned to the male figures in my life ... and the thing that saddens me is how sooner or later, one way or another to abandon all end; From My Father, I never knew really what he meant to call a person PAPA '... it is to me ever since weighing this important figure in many replacements have been supplanted .... My grandfather for example, is the subject closest to occupy this role ... but it is not the same thing.
After an unsuccessful attempt to supplant the figure as important, was the first time for me falling in love ... traumatic I must say, that most pleasant ... even there, I was abandoned.
This sense of abandonment is that every time Loneliness is back from me, put me to confusion in the mind, that's beginning to be unsure of my beliefs ... makes me suspicious and malfidente towards my male figures .... with the only fixed idea in my head that whispers in my ear every second "so you know, he let you down ... they do it all, why should not he?"
He will not ... but as usual, remains to be seen.
is struggling, but sooner or later ... taking moller and someone would abandon forever.
